Rough Day...

I guess having 3 toddlers entitles me to a few rough days. Well, I'm having one. So, instead of drowning in my own pity, I thought I would let it all out here. Lily has an ear infection and has been whiny and cranky all day. Kade has a cough and a little fever and has been...you guessed it....cranky and whiny all day. They have both been wanting to be held. This is where one of the main difficulty of twins comes into play. I only have two arms and one lap:) Rylee...my dear, sweet, darling three year old...(do you hear the sarcasm in my voice :) well, she is going through some kind of phase where she just doesn't want to obey... With all of this going on today...it is only 3pm and I am wiped out. Fortunately, we have church tonight and a beautiful thing called "the church nursery":)

The Love of God

I am currently reading "Lies women believe and the truth that sets them free" by Nancy DeMoss and working through the companion notebook. Basically at the root of every stronghold is a lie that we have believed. I'm discovering that Satan is really, really good at what he does. He knows exactly where we are weak and he attacks.

One of the major lies that I struggle with is that God couldn't possibly love me when I ___________. The blank could be anything and I'm sure we could all fill it in with something or many things. I don't know why I struggle with God's unconditional love for me. I don't really know if I fully grasp how much He loves me. So, I am desperately trying to replace that lie with God's truth. It really takes work. But I read something this morning that I want to share by Hannah Whitall Smith:

Put together all the tenderest love you know of, the deepest you have ever felt, and the strongest that has ever been poured out upon you, and heap upon it all the love of all the loving human hearts in the world, and then multiply it by infinity, and you will begin, perhaps to have some faint glimpse of what the love of God is.

When the husband is away............

you're up to your eyeballs in children :) Kyle left this morning for staff retreat. He'll be back tomorrow night. All of the staff wives are coming over tonight for some fun and fellowship and Angie (children's ministers wife) is spending the night with her two kids, so I won't be lonely :) ok....and so we won't both be scared...we don't like it when our hubbies are away.

I forgot to write about Rylee burning her hand on the stove on Friday night. She likes to watch me cook lately and we have many discussions about things being hot etc. Well, she decided to test me on my word and reached out and touched the burner with the backside of her left hand. Why she didn't touch it like a normal person beats me. Anyway, as I was doctoring her hand she said, "Mommy, you told me the truth!" Which I do try to do most of the time :) Kids will be kids...testing limits and boundaries....hmmm...don't we still do that as adults?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MINDY EILEEN!!! May your 30's bring you much joy and at least one more child...hee, hee, hee!!!!!!!! I love you like a sister :) :)

motherhood and other such stuff...

So I am reading this book called "How to get your kids to mind without losing yours" by Kevin Lehman. The title appealed to me because...well...I feel like I might lose my mind on a daily basis. I'm into Ch. 4 and rather enjoying it. It's coming from the standpoint of taking the time to develop heartchange in our kids rather than just behavior change. It's good stuff.

You know those times when you feel like God is so far away...then there are the times when He feels as close as your breath. Well, I've just been through the "far away time" and I'm currently going through the "close as my breath time". Frankly, I prefer these times. I feel like He is teaching me so much on a daily basis that I can't keep up with it all. I feel so blessed right now. Not because everything is perfect, but because I have an amazing family, the best friends God could give and a Savior who desires to be with me, teach me and grow me.

Putting yourself out there...

So, I decided to try this whole blogging thing. It's kind've scary, however...rather vulnerable. You basically put your thoughts out there for everyone to critique and have an opinion on. Then there is also the fear that no one will care what you have to say. But, my thought is...if you don't like it...don't read it. That simple. So, this is the beginning of my musings. I'm hoping it will be therapeutic :)